Trauma monster

- Puts me into hell everytime

Hello everyone, we do usually feel bad to accept the fact that we are mentally down at times. We feel bad to accept that we have to undergo therapies. But when it comes to physical health we don't usually feel that bad. So why this partiality between mental and physical health ? Today it's about a trauma monster which acts upon me which ruins my present. This way I am encouraging people to come out of the barrier that having a trauma cannot be discussed.

My past did put me into a trauma where in whenever I get closer to people the first thing that pops out in my mind is what if they leave me? Rather than enjoying the moments, I start to see possibilities of them leaving me which may eventually make them to leave also. With this fear I have lost n number of good people in my life. Why is our brain always thinks about black or white? May be we should start thinking in grey directions.

Did that trauma monster just stop there? No it has imagined what if those people who have been there in my life long since leave me. Does it not sound scary to run multiple iterations of imaginary scenarios inside head and try correlating it with reality. Trauma monster is dangerous and I could never understand what was actually controlling me.

And recently I named that feeling of stomach pit and suffocation as trauma monster.Since then I am able to root down to a point where in none of outer emotions aren't that valid because the underlying emotion is fear and that trauma monster has taken control of my whole body along with my mind.

So what should I do with this trauma monster now? Can I just like that destroy it? Is it that easy? Definitely no, I am trying slowly to conciously understand where all these trauma monsters are acting upon and whats the root cause of that trauma monster's dance. We all are work in progress and so am I.

Let's talk about mental health more and also be non judgemental if somebody comes and explains you that they have a mental health issue which they are unable to handle. Can we break the stereotype of feeling inferior for going to therapist and also seeing people differently for going to a therapist.

I know that I m going to get judged with this article. But it's fine. Happy weekend, take care of your mental health.